On 28 January 1806, five days after Pitt's death, Lord Melville wrote to William Huskisson about his grief:
"I am certainly very miserable, and as there is not an hour of my life for these twenty four years past, that does not at this moment and for ever continue to bring his image to my Mind, I cannot summon up or suggest to myself any Recourse from which I can collect a Ray of consolation…I must wait for that Species of Apathy which buries every thing past in one indiscriminate Oblivion."
I cannot read this without becoming upset.
Huskisson Papers. B.L. Add Ms 38759.